Music Monday – Mike Shinoda’s “Post Traumatic”

It’s been a while since I’ve done a Music Monday post. I’m going to keep the main part of it fairly short (who am I kidding, this is me).

On Friday of last week, Mike Shinoda of Linkin Park put out a solo album, Post Traumatic. A while back, he did a rap album as Fort Minor, (with the amazing Remember The Name). This one is a bit different.

It’s about grief.

I’m sure at least some of my followers are aware that Chester Bennington of Linkin Park took his own life last year. It… devastated me. I love Linkin Park, have been a fan of their music for ages. But more than losing an amazing musician, it was why.

Because, let’s be honest, we’ll never know exactly why. Chester had demons in his head he battled—likely every day—and we can only guess what was going through his mind that pushed him that little bit too far. Depression is a bitch who doesn’t give a fuck who she hurts. She will lie, steal every happy thought and memory, attack self-worth… the list goes on. I’m well familiar with her, myself. I fight her constantly. Right now, I’m on the tail end of a depressive episode that I’ve been fighting for a while. So I have an inkling, but even that isn’t enough to truly understand what Chester was going through when he died.

He left behind a lot of questions, a lot of pain, and a lot of grief.

I grieved. I grieved for anyone as amazing as Chester to feel there was no way out. I grieved for the lost music and beautiful words and voice. I couldn’t watch the concert they did to celebrate Chester’s life until this month (and I probably should have waited a little more). I grieved, more than I ever had for any celebrity. His death hit me hard.

And I’m sure it was only a fraction of what his fellow band members, family, and friends went through. I’ve been through that, too, so I get it to a point.

Mike Shinoda took that grief and poured it out onto the page and into this album. Post Traumatic is a compilation of the struggles Mike went through in the wake of Chester’s death. His words ring so true in the lyrics, I feel some of my own losses keenly all over again. I can feel his pain.

I don’t do content warnings as a rule, but I will warn: there is serious grief in this album. If it’s not something you can handle, you’ll want to pass it by. The worst songs are “Place To Start”, “Over Again”, and “Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.” They’re amazing, but very hard.

It’s a mix of rap and alternative, so if rap isn’t your thing, you’ll want to listen to the samples before buying. Still, I highly recommend it. It’s amazing work. I don’t usually buy physical CDs, but I did with this one. He deserved it.

One of the best from the album, despite how hard it is, is “Nothing Makes Sense Anymore”:

I could go on about depression. I’ve written about it before and in the middle of one of the most hellish episodes I’d ever had, it spawned my longest book, No Sacrifice. I feel like Mike’s version of this is Post Traumatic. It’s amazing and well worth the listen (and buy).

Get Post Traumatic on Amazon, iTunes, Google Play, and Spotify.

Mike on YouTube.

And if you’re feeling especially brave, the concert to honor Chester. (Brace yourself at the twelve minute mark, though.)

3 Comments

  1. Starlight Starlight
    June 19, 2018    

    I appreciate your post, (maybe even more than some other people would, who’s to say, really…), because not only do I intensely mourn the loss of Chester, I have depression, too & I’ve been there, right on the edge, & now, I seriously couldn’t be happier that my attempts failed. I have antidepressants & counselling & systems in place to try & prevent my getting that low again. I’ve just come out the other side of a downward spiral, myself & things are beginning to level out a bit more. I don’t think that I’m ready to listen to Post Traumatic, yet, & I’m still massively grieving Chris Cornell, (I may have misspelled the surname, sorry), as well, it was really brave of you to watch the concert they gave for Chester, I’m not quite at that point myself, yet, but one day I will. Thank you again, for your post, for being so open & for being honest about such raw subjects.

    • Grace Duncan Grace Duncan
      June 19, 2018    

      It’s so hard to deal with. I’m glad to hear you’re leveling out. I’m not sure I should have watched it when I did, but I’m glad I did watch it. It was an amazing show, but it WAS hard to watch. Chris didn’t hit me nearly as hard as Chester did, but then again I didn’t follow him like I did Chester.

      I think it’s important that anyone with even a small platform like I do is open and honest about stuff like this. There’s still a ridiculous stigma on mental illness and it’s got to stop. You’d think in 2018, it wouldn’t be so bad still, but it is. And I figure if I can show that I struggle with it, fight it too, then someone else out there might not feel so alone. If I can help even one person…

      I thought Post Traumatic would be too heard to listen to (and I do understand it not being so for some), but I’ve found it to be good for me. I hope, when you feel that you have leveled out and are comfortable, you’ll give it a listen. Mike did an amazing job.

      • Starlight Starlight
        June 21, 2018    

        I appreciate your post, (maybe even more than some other people would, who’s to say, really…), because not only do I intensely mourn the loss of Chester, I have depression, too & I’ve been there, right on the edge, & now, I seriously couldn’t be happier that my attempts failed. I have antidepressants & counselling & systems in place to try & prevent my getting that low again. I’ve just come out the other side of a downward spiral, myself & things are beginning to level out a bit more. I don’t think that I’m ready to listen to Post Traumatic, yet, & I’m still massively grieving Chris Cornell, (I may have misspelled the surname, sorry), as well, it was really brave of you to watch the concert they gave for Chester, I’m not quite at that point myself, yet, but one day I will. Thank you again, for your post, for being so open & for being honest about such raw subjects.
        I hit reply to your reply & it put me here, so I’m just going to go with it…
        Thanks for replying, I really, really appreciate that. & yes, I will buy the CD, & listen to it, because I know I need to, & because I think it will help. I feel the same about depression not being talked about enough, in general. I feel that so many people, especially men, don’t realize that they have it because there are just so many different symptoms & kinds & not everyone realizes or recognizes that. Some years ago, here in New Zealand, a famous rugby player came out & publicly stated that he had depression, he spoke about how hard it had been to get help, about how even family & friends had basically told him to just ‘man up’ & get on with things, he did a great & very brave thing & for a while it really helped, but I feel like we’re back-sliding these days & depression is being ignored again & I wish there was something I could do to make people more aware.

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